Last updated: 2 July 2010
The sexual desire I felt was not about expecting to ejaculate with her or to have intercourse, as my being Tracey's Devotional Friend means that I will never ejaculate with her and that we will never go as far as Joy (intercourse).
These
restrictions remove the male drive that once something erotic starts
things must progress further so that he can reach satisfaction. The
liberating thing about Devotional Friends is that by removing the
conventional end-points, the friends are free to enjoy any mix of Sensual Pleasures, Intimacy, Erotic Fun, and even Sexual Pleasures other than Joy.
Sitting naked at Tracey's feet and being aroused did have me thinking of her Pleasure.
Tracey was wearing trousers, so there was nothing to see. But the
situation had me feeling desire to see more (now that would make a
powerful tease).
As what happened was totally unplanned, I wasn't dressed nor prepared for any further teasing.
Michael adds:
As
an aside, this really goes to show just how much is in the mind.
Tracey
was wearing trousers, so her Pleasure was covered by some cloth, and
all felt chaste.
If Tracey was wearing a dress, and if I could have
looked up her dress and seen her underwear, her Pleasure would still have been
covered by some cloth, and so this would have felt exactly the same ...
Well,
of course, seeing her panties would not feel at all the same to either
me or Tracey. She would know that she was teasing me, and I would
feel very teased and become more aroused by this teasing.
So it is how
we think about a situation, and what we think our partner is thinking,
that is most important.
The mind really is the most important sex organ!
Even
though Tracey was wearing trousers, my sitting at her feet and looking
up at her also had me thinking that it would be lovely to one day give her a
long Pleasure Kiss.
Naked
and aroused at her feet, with her fully dressed, it felt right that she
was the one to decide then, and in the future, what will happen.
Many
years of practicing Devotional Sex has changed the way I fantasize when
sitting at a woman's feet. My main fantasy is not to `have my way with
her´ but to be allowed to give her pleasure by giving her oral
sex.
And, when Tracey reads
this story, she will perhaps think "Yes, I think I will more explicitly tease
Michael one day" or "I would like to have him give me oral sex one day"
or "It's fun that Michael desires this, but I'll never go this far with
him."
For maybe another forty minutes we continued to talk as I sat naked in front of Tracey and massaged her feet.
Tracey
knew that at any time she could tell me to put my shorts back on, so it
was great that she enjoyed having me be naked with her for all of this
time.
I knew I could stop it at any time, but I enjoyed the sexually charged scene.
When the conversation, or my thoughts, reminded me of our
situation I would get harder. And when the conversation and my thoughts
were on something totally non-sexual, I would grow softer.
I'm sure that Tracey could clearly see all my ups and downs!
This
made me feel very much her Knight as even during a quiet time in the
conversation, if she saw me growing she knew that I was thinking sexy
thoughts. And when we were talking she could see which parts of the
conversation aroused me.
Though most of the time we talked about normal things, we did spend some time talking about Devotional Sex.
As
I felt very much her Knight as I was sitting naked at her feet, it felt
natural to tell her more about what I would do as her Knight.
I told her that whenever we were together in private, if she ever tells me to Reveal then
I would do so - she could have me be naked whenever she wished. I added that her having me naked can be
for as long as she liked, and that, for example, if she wished she
could have me be naked even when we were watching a DVD.
I also told Tracey that usually Affirmation feels better and is even more fun the second time it is done.
The
first time it is all new (and that is exciting), but the new Princess is
not quiet sure of her power to ensure that things go no further than she wishes, and her Knight is probably a bit
nervous as he is not sure how things will go.
The second time the roles feel much more natural and real, and both feel more relaxed as they enjoy the experience.
One of the great things about Affirmation
is that a Princess can see the rises and falls of her Knight's arousal,
and this part of our conversation was one of the times when I was almost fully hard. So I
know that Tracey knows that I like the idea of another adventure.
Though there were times when I got almost fully hard, I never got to a really hard full erection.
I
think that if we had talked about her looking at me more directly, or
other very sexual topics, I would have got fully hard from just the
talk. But our talk never quite got that far.
And
her not mentioning my almost erection, and her not asking me to play
with myself to make myself fully hard, left me feeling slightly unsure
of what she really wanted.
This slight doubt was probably why I never got fully hard.
I'm
not sure whether Tracey knew it or not, but her not allowing me to
touch myself was actually a strong bit of Princess Power. There were
three reasons why I really wanted to touch myself, and thus it was some
effort to be an obedient Knight and not do so.
Firstly, in a way
it is a bit embarrassing to be almost erect, but not fully there. So
one reason I wanted to play with myself was to get myself fully hard.
Secondly, it would have been exciting for me to have her watching me.
And thirdly, being aroused for that long without being allowed to receive the pleasure of any touch is rather frustrating.
I
wanted to be naked with her, so this part was not difficult. But never
being allowed to touch myself whilst feeling aroused for so long was a
challenge, and showed that I did obey my Princess.
I didn't realize that not allowing Michael to touch himself was that powerful.
At one stage I told her that if she wanted she could have me play with myself while I was sitting in the bean bag.
Tracey replied "Not now."
But then she added some very exciting words "Maybe next time."
I didn’t feel ready for more `charge´ so I let that one go.
But had I felt less tired or more playful, that would have been something to consider.
When Tracey had had enough foot massage, we had a little cuddle on the couch. Me naked (and aroused), she still fully dressed.
This
didn't feel right as Tracey was not relaxed about it. So when she
suggested showing me an amusing video on the net, I quickly agreed.
I
didn’t feel uncomfortable - at least not considerably - but rather
realized it was time to go home and finish some overdue things.
And the
sofa was not the most comfortable place for two adults to cuddle, so
perhaps I was less than subtle in my suggestion.
Michael adds:
Intimacy and cuddles
is one of the pleasures that can be shared with a Devotional Friend.
Once a Princess feels totally comfortable and relaxed that she decides
what will and will not happen, two Devotional Friends can go to bed for
just a cuddle.
So perhaps Tracey will one day want to enjoy a relaxing and comfortable in-bed cuddle.
We got up off the couch, and I sat in front of the computer.
What
was fun for me is that Tracey did not ask me to get dressed. So our
finding and then watching the video clip at the computer was all done
with me still naked.
I
didn’t ask Michael to get dressed, and it went almost unnoticed that I
found him sitting behind the monitor watching the video naked.
One of the fun things with Affirmation is
that a Princess can have her Knight be naked while doing just ordinary
things.
It felt strange but good that Tracey had kept me naked.
For
me it reinforced her erotic power over me as she was in control over
the rises and falls of my arousal. And as I was naked, these rises and
falls were very obvious.
Having me be naked during this
non-sexual time made my nudity with her feel a part of our relationship
instead of just a part of our mild sexual activity. It felt good to
still feel like her Knight even when I wasn't aroused.
I
thought it was fortuitous fun, although by then the sexual tension had
mostly dissipated.
I think it was a very natural thing to do (not dress
up immediately) and I just relaxed and enjoyed it.
A few
minutes later Tracey said she needed to go home.
Still naked I walked her out, but only
as far as the side gate so that I could not be seen from the street.
Writing this story
When I was with Tracey my thoughts were all about us both having fun.
It
was only the next day that I decided that what we had enjoyed together
would make a very good real-life story for this website.
I asked
Tracey if it was OK to write and publish our story, and she was happy
with this. And even better, she was also willing to add a few comments.
It was fun and arousing reliving our adventure as I wrote about it.
As
this story includes my inner thoughts and feelings I was nervous about
what Tracey would think when she read it. As you can see from her
comments above, she was fine about it all.
I'm sure that she
learned a lot about me, and I had a few surprises reading her comments.
So writing the above story was not only fun but a great way of sharing
our thoughts about what had happened.
As
Devotional Sex is about a Princess having control of all sensual and
sexual activities with her Knight, many men in my situation would think
that the next step for us to take things further would be for Tracey to
read all about Devotional Sex.
But when Tracey read this story she did not look at any other pages on this website.
This did not worry me because
none of the women who have enjoyed Devotional Sex with me have ever studied this site.
They don't need to, as
I'm always happy to talk about Devotional Sex with them. And whenever
I'm with a new Princess I act as their guide and map to what might happen
next.
What happened next time?
The
above adventure was very exciting and erotic.
But though it had the
thrill of the new, it also suffered slightly from us both being a bit
nervous and not fully settled into our roles.
I knew that if
Tracey ever decided to do something similar again, our second time
would be an even more powerful and erotic adventure.
What I did not know was whether or not Tracey was interested in once again having me be her Knight.
What happened the next time I met Tracey? Read on to find out.
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